a return, perhaps brief

So, this blog is only nominally public, and for the time being. It is more like a public to-do list, and has always been, more than anything else.  So, what I'm saying is... I'm totes not trying to be interesting... in fact, it is probably tedious. But I occasionally may write more personal posts in the future, although mostly still for my own use.

Things to do:
++ run 3 miles
++ email back people that should be emailed...
++ Spanish -- sign up for classes / tutor... start learning vocab daily
++ weight-training shiz -- start today!
++ schedule oil change for car -- oh boy does it need it so much I am embarrassed
++finish exp. music paper
++oh shiz dino shiz... composition and final model (or just the 2nd version of the skull)
++ tango later?

Thoughts:

It has always been hard for me to get things done during the summer.  I don't know why I'm delaying the Spanish thing, except for I'm afraid of how much I've forgotten.

Losing weight is the one thing during the summer that I know I can do.  During the rest of the year, it is hard since I become so busy, but this summer I have time to really start being fit, etc. again. Also, I know that during the rest of the year, I am stressed and active enough so that I generally maintain weight... the summer... no.  Especially in Arizona where its so hot that its hard for me to choose to bike anywhere if I don't have to do so.

My goal is pretty modest.  I'm hoping for initially a five pound weight loss and maybe five more if I have time, etc. I am, though, hoping to get pretty fit, and I hoping to pass from mostly thin into like, yes! I am slender. Or whatever.  I am thinking of doing a triathlon competition in September, which gives me a concrete goal.  I do so much better with concrete goals. Plus I think that getting moving will help with my other goals.

My worry is that my goal space is large whereas the amount of external structure I have is little until very late August. That's why I need Spanish CLASSES.  lkjdfladjfl;akjf

We shall see.

Study in Losing Control monologue version a zillion.

This is a study in losing control.

You see, I have to practice.

If I don't practice, I'm afraid I'll lose control badly.

And if I lose control badly that might be embarrassing not just for me

but for you.

And I would so hate for you to be uncomfortable.

But I'm not sure if that's completely true. Let me tell you about my research.

I am interested in the body. I am interested in your body.

No, that's not right!

If we are bodies. If we don't just have a body.

But sometimes it feels as if I am not part of my body, but I am controlling it like a puppet.

When does this happen? It happens when I fail. It happens when I lose control. It happens when I feel pain. And in the same manner of being, sometimes I am myself. But sometimes I am outside. Losing control.

And I am interested in the liminality of this state. The boundary conditions. Because everything breaks down. Eventually.

...

[insert dinosaur emo post]

links, hadrosaur / syrinx

http://www.indiana.edu/~songbird/multi/songproduction_index.html

http://obiwannabe.co.uk/tutorials/html/tutorial_birds.html


Diegert, Carl F.; and Williamson, Thomas E. (1998). A digital acoustic model of the lambeosaurine hadrosaur Parasaurolophus tubicen. Journal of Vertebrate Paleontology 18 (3, Suppl.): 38A.

http://evanslab.wordpress.com/publications/

http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/stable/2400478?&Search=yes&searchText=cranial&searchText=lambeosaurine&searchText=cavity&searchText=Nasal&searchText=dinosaurs&searchText=homologies&searchText=crest&searchText=function&list=hide&searchUri=%2Faction%2FdoBasicSearch%3FQuery%3DNasal%2Bcavity%2Bhomologies%2Band%2Bcranial%2Bcrest%2Bfunction%2Bin%2Blambeosaurine%2Bdinosaurs%26acc%3Don%26wc%3Don&prevSearch=&item=4&ttl=20&returnArticleService=showFullText

Dinosaurian Cacophony
Author(s): David B. Weishampel
Source: BioScience, Vol. 47, No. 3 (Mar., 1997), pp. 150-159

link: http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/stable/1313034?&Search=yes&searchText=%22David+B.+Weishampel%22&list=hide&searchUri=%2Faction%2FdoBasicSearch%3FQuery%3Dau%253A%2522David%2BB.%2BWeishampel%2522%26wc%3Don&prevSearch=&item=3&ttl=44&returnArticleService=showFullText

HADROSAURS MOST LIKELY HAD SOME KIND OF LARYNX **NOT** SYRINX

http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=5&ved=0CDQQFjAE&url=http%3A%2F%2Feverglades.fiu.edu%2Freclaim%2Fmonographs%2Fpdfs%2FFI07042511%2Fsliced%2FChapter%25207.pdf&rct=j&q=crocodile%20larynx&ei=Qr92TsTiA_TZiALK-PyyAg&usg=AFQjCNETNlCZCz76gbY0yJirHX6psgQ0Iw&sig2=haEdd3Kci2BgRi61rtK-jg&cad=rja

http://www.norcalblogs.com/birds/2010/12/swans.html
http://www.allaboutbirds.org/guide/Trumpeter_Swan/sounds

http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/stable/3881928

hadrosaur art sound installation / instrument links

http://www.oucom.ohiou.edu/dbms-witmer/

http://digimorph.org/listbygroup.phtml?grp=Dinosaurs,&sort=SpeciesName

http://www.rom.on.ca/collections/curators/evans.php

http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/doi/10.1002/ar.20984/abstract

http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1002/jez.1401680303/abstract

long time no see

Ok, I'm switching the focus of this to being more a research log for current work and thoughts, mostly for my compositions and doctoral work. Probably will occasionally post deadlines, etc. but as I am in grad school, there are in-built structures that I can organize around. Ergo, I don't need to keep track of applications and booking things in quite the same way as I did as an independent composer/artist.

exitrip, music + architecture, etc.

I'm working on recording the music + architecture piece. Decided to just use samplers for the brass, and record only accordion for clarinet and me for the soprano. It's taking much longer than I would like. Gah.

Spanish tomorrow. That's gonna kill me. Early in the morning.

So, all the damn batteries in my ExiTrip died.... since somehow turning off the ExiTrip didn't actually stop it from draining the batteries. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I had to order express delivery from digikey. PLUS, my damn charger that I bought turned out to be an IC which requires a breakout board... a TINY IC that I could not actually use with a breadboard. Worried about this piece... hopefully I get batteries by Tuesday and I can test-run the tech before rehearsal.

Moving soon. Not really thinking about it.

If someone tells me again about all the music schools in NYC and why did I decide to leave I will scream. I didn't even apply to any around here... I guess I did want to get out.

Ugh, I feel stressed. I totally didn't do enough work yesterday even if I did a decent amount today. BLAH.

OK. Things to do:
1. Finish recording before Fred comes over to work on the proposal with me.
2. Edit together a few 20 minute tracks for the rehearsal Tues. (start this)
3. Print out ExiTrip score.
4. Write a beginning maybe for the proposal before the evening
5. Language Lab
6. Send out email blast about show (ok, Tues, okay to do this... I smell infinite procrastination....
7. Call park people again!! (Tues ok)

Okay, that's it. Gah!!!

ETA: Okay, yes I did robot piece. Everything worked despite my laptop crashing 2 days before. OMFG. Oh god I should do a backup RIGHT NOW. Backupz -- important!

ETA2: Also, still working on getting 'in which' performed... either late July or maybe fall. It's all happening, baby.

ETA3: Too many things at once.

ETA4: Oh, yah, I did get the KHNC artist residency fellowship thingy but I don't know if I can GO! GAH! Professor still hasn't replied.