Study in Losing Control monologue version a zillion.

This is a study in losing control.

You see, I have to practice.

If I don't practice, I'm afraid I'll lose control badly.

And if I lose control badly that might be embarrassing not just for me

but for you.

And I would so hate for you to be uncomfortable.

But I'm not sure if that's completely true. Let me tell you about my research.

I am interested in the body. I am interested in your body.

No, that's not right!

If we are bodies. If we don't just have a body.

But sometimes it feels as if I am not part of my body, but I am controlling it like a puppet.

When does this happen? It happens when I fail. It happens when I lose control. It happens when I feel pain. And in the same manner of being, sometimes I am myself. But sometimes I am outside. Losing control.

And I am interested in the liminality of this state. The boundary conditions. Because everything breaks down. Eventually.

...

[insert dinosaur emo post]

links, hadrosaur / syrinx

http://www.indiana.edu/~songbird/multi/songproduction_index.html

http://obiwannabe.co.uk/tutorials/html/tutorial_birds.html


Diegert, Carl F.; and Williamson, Thomas E. (1998). A digital acoustic model of the lambeosaurine hadrosaur Parasaurolophus tubicen. Journal of Vertebrate Paleontology 18 (3, Suppl.): 38A.

http://evanslab.wordpress.com/publications/

http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/stable/2400478?&Search=yes&searchText=cranial&searchText=lambeosaurine&searchText=cavity&searchText=Nasal&searchText=dinosaurs&searchText=homologies&searchText=crest&searchText=function&list=hide&searchUri=%2Faction%2FdoBasicSearch%3FQuery%3DNasal%2Bcavity%2Bhomologies%2Band%2Bcranial%2Bcrest%2Bfunction%2Bin%2Blambeosaurine%2Bdinosaurs%26acc%3Don%26wc%3Don&prevSearch=&item=4&ttl=20&returnArticleService=showFullText

Dinosaurian Cacophony
Author(s): David B. Weishampel
Source: BioScience, Vol. 47, No. 3 (Mar., 1997), pp. 150-159

link: http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/stable/1313034?&Search=yes&searchText=%22David+B.+Weishampel%22&list=hide&searchUri=%2Faction%2FdoBasicSearch%3FQuery%3Dau%253A%2522David%2BB.%2BWeishampel%2522%26wc%3Don&prevSearch=&item=3&ttl=44&returnArticleService=showFullText

HADROSAURS MOST LIKELY HAD SOME KIND OF LARYNX **NOT** SYRINX

http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=5&ved=0CDQQFjAE&url=http%3A%2F%2Feverglades.fiu.edu%2Freclaim%2Fmonographs%2Fpdfs%2FFI07042511%2Fsliced%2FChapter%25207.pdf&rct=j&q=crocodile%20larynx&ei=Qr92TsTiA_TZiALK-PyyAg&usg=AFQjCNETNlCZCz76gbY0yJirHX6psgQ0Iw&sig2=haEdd3Kci2BgRi61rtK-jg&cad=rja

http://www.norcalblogs.com/birds/2010/12/swans.html
http://www.allaboutbirds.org/guide/Trumpeter_Swan/sounds

http://www.jstor.org.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/stable/3881928

hadrosaur art sound installation / instrument links

http://www.oucom.ohiou.edu/dbms-witmer/

http://digimorph.org/listbygroup.phtml?grp=Dinosaurs,&sort=SpeciesName

http://www.rom.on.ca/collections/curators/evans.php

http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com.ezproxy1.lib.asu.edu/doi/10.1002/ar.20984/abstract

http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1002/jez.1401680303/abstract

long time no see

Ok, I'm switching the focus of this to being more a research log for current work and thoughts, mostly for my compositions and doctoral work. Probably will occasionally post deadlines, etc. but as I am in grad school, there are in-built structures that I can organize around. Ergo, I don't need to keep track of applications and booking things in quite the same way as I did as an independent composer/artist.

exitrip, music + architecture, etc.

I'm working on recording the music + architecture piece. Decided to just use samplers for the brass, and record only accordion for clarinet and me for the soprano. It's taking much longer than I would like. Gah.

Spanish tomorrow. That's gonna kill me. Early in the morning.

So, all the damn batteries in my ExiTrip died.... since somehow turning off the ExiTrip didn't actually stop it from draining the batteries. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I had to order express delivery from digikey. PLUS, my damn charger that I bought turned out to be an IC which requires a breakout board... a TINY IC that I could not actually use with a breadboard. Worried about this piece... hopefully I get batteries by Tuesday and I can test-run the tech before rehearsal.

Moving soon. Not really thinking about it.

If someone tells me again about all the music schools in NYC and why did I decide to leave I will scream. I didn't even apply to any around here... I guess I did want to get out.

Ugh, I feel stressed. I totally didn't do enough work yesterday even if I did a decent amount today. BLAH.

OK. Things to do:
1. Finish recording before Fred comes over to work on the proposal with me.
2. Edit together a few 20 minute tracks for the rehearsal Tues. (start this)
3. Print out ExiTrip score.
4. Write a beginning maybe for the proposal before the evening
5. Language Lab
6. Send out email blast about show (ok, Tues, okay to do this... I smell infinite procrastination....
7. Call park people again!! (Tues ok)

Okay, that's it. Gah!!!

ETA: Okay, yes I did robot piece. Everything worked despite my laptop crashing 2 days before. OMFG. Oh god I should do a backup RIGHT NOW. Backupz -- important!

ETA2: Also, still working on getting 'in which' performed... either late July or maybe fall. It's all happening, baby.

ETA3: Too many things at once.

ETA4: Oh, yah, I did get the KHNC artist residency fellowship thingy but I don't know if I can GO! GAH! Professor still hasn't replied.

some stuff I am doing now. update. robot II. etc.

The Art in Motion show went off as planned. What a wonderful experience.

http://insurgostageproject.wordpress.com/category/art-in-motion/

I have about a week before I'm performing my robot work in front of people @ Spoke the Hub. Luckily, my robot works and stuffz. I am getting wheels to build another one tomorrow... THEN... I think I will do the 'final' soldering... can't perform with a breadboard... can you?

http://www.vimeo.com/22759159

I think I might implement some membrane drum models or something... but maybe later.

I am going to ASU officially and it is mostly funded, so that is good.

I have park permits for the ExiTrip performance... and performers lined up...

A tap dancer might perform 'in which...' which(!) would complete one of my goals for the beginning of this blog... (ha). If that comes to pass, I'll prob. also try to get the origami piece played, maybe by the same ensemble... (including me)

Started working on a music + architecture proposal with an architect whom I met during tango...

I don't have a huge to-do list besides the obv. for my performance in a week. I have to do some work on the proposal for next week... Then, the to-do for ExiTrip... (prob. need to come up with an actual name for the piece)..

Just kind of working steadily...