more robot & progress

So, I mostly finished "in which these implications appear to present difficulties" ...got a lot of the live electronics started... decided I mostly liked all the piano notes actually after all. Feeling meh about the piece so maybe that means its not actually finished. Originally, it was for toy piano but then I got all large with the range and stuff. Like... I'm not sure why I'm finishing it bc I really have no burning desire to get it played... esp. now since I made it not exactly playable by toy. But maybe I'm just feeling meh right now. Or I suppose it could work for 2 toy pianos. Maybe.

I applied to some stuff this week... made all my intended deadlines except one, which isn't bad. Also, found a show for my robot in mid-November in Boston. I'm not definitely in, but I'm likely to get in (says the curator). So, I really gotta start crackin'. That is actually a deadline that is coming up fast. Oh, and what I proposed was my chair robot that walks in rhythm & I mic the floor, etc. Also, moving it with a wiimote. Chairbot is fragile, blind, and can fall over. I intend NOT to name it Chairbot, tho. I need something snappy or cute, but I'm bored off 'bot' on the end of everything.

I feel like I get so off-track... I guess its hard to finish pieces that I have no definite deadline / show to get ready for. I'm wondering if I should try & book a Dec. show like I said... since w/applying to grad school + Nov. robot show... I'm going to be burning the candle at both ends... but... I am only working part-time this year.

One thing that occurred to me. I sometimes feel bad since my performances have gone down a bit. But one thing is that I have been (except for when I took a break last winter) composing fairly consistently... and when I had a lot of performances (in 2008 I had 22, which is a lot, I think)... I was often performing the same show, over and over again. And I didn't have a dayjob. And I was getting performances bc I was in grad school for it part of the year. Having a dayjob totally brings down my productivity... or music output, actually. Esp. the time that I spent doing it 40 hrs. a week. Anyways, I'll probably book a tour of my robots some time next spring. we shall see.....